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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Teen_Wolf_(TV)
  Relationship:
      Derek_Hale/Stiles_Stilinski
  Character:
      Derek_Hale, Stiles_Stilinski, Sheriff_Stilinski, Alan_Deaton
  Additional Tags:
      Alpha/Beta/Omega_Dynamics, Alpha_Derek_Hale, Alpha_Derek, Omega_Stiles
      Stilinski, Alpha_Sheriff_Stilinski, Mating_Cycles/In_Heat, Werewolf
      Stiles_Stilinski, POV_Stiles, Mating, Mating_Bond, Mating_Bites, Mating
      Run, Blood_Rituals, Hurt_Stiles, Emotional_Hurt/Comfort, Christmas,
      Bonding_Signs, Protective_Derek, Cookies, Misunderstandings, Depression,
      Thoughts_About_Death_Wishes, Stilinski_Family_Moments
  Series:
      Part 1 of The_Bloodline_Series
  Collections:
      The_Sterek_Secret_Santa_-_Edition_2016
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-12-18 Updated: 2017-10-20 Chapters: 4/? Words: 9981
****** Heat's Receipt ******
by GSWritings
Summary
     Long before Stiles ever had his first own one he’d learned that heats
     were meant for pleasure and joy. Yet there had always been a trace of
     fear when people talked about strong heats, a carefulness that
     couldn’t be explained by pleasure. Growing up there was something
     else he learned about heats, along with rules forged into his memory
     until he knew them better than his own name: Fear the feral Omega. If
     there are only the slightest signs, ensure security, call the cops
     and wait for their arrival. Ferals had been stories from the news
     until Stiles’ life slowly started to grow into a nightmare. There’s
     only one chance left for him now, no matter how dangerous. But will
     he be able to get grumpy alpha epitome Derek Hale to help him? Or is
     he lost?
Notes
     HOHOHO! Merry Christmas Stereks! This is a very secret Santa
     speaking!
     This story was written as part of the Sterek_Secret_Santa_Gift
     Exchance_2016 for my giftee weatherbittensapphire. Merry Christmas to
     you, honey!
     "You know the max limit in the guidelines was 5k right? lol"
     "WHAT?!"
     -> That's my trauma for the next year, after I cancled a first fic
     and wrote faaaaaar more than only 5k for the present because I am
     stupid and obviously unable to read, or keep control over my fics and
     the limit entirely slipped me. ._. For you, my beloved giftee deary,
     my inability means this fic is a lot longer and I will post more
     chapters on a weekly basis from now on. Enjoy the fic (hopefully),
     and have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!
     _______________________________________
     About Tags and Warnings!
     As stated above this fic is longer than this chapter and I already
     included a few tags for the future ones. There might or might not
     still be some changes coming with future uploads.
     I chose the underage warning because this fic contains our very loved
     teen Stiles, who, after all, is still underage. Yes, there will be
     sexual content in the future.
     _______________________________________
     THANKS to...
     ...no one, yet because this would totally reveal who I am. 8D But
     please come back after boxing day to check the thanks section again!!
     I had a lot of support here!
     One person cannot be forgotten, though: leetje for organizing this
     beautiful event, her kindness and patience. Sorry for the
     inconveniences, honey!
***** Chapter 1 *****
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
[Heat's Receipt Header by GS Writings]
Stiles was so sick of his heats. Of the excruciating pain and hoarseness and
afterwards being more sore than he could handle. Sick of being lost and dizzy
and so hopeless life didn’t have a meaning anymore. Of course all of this only
kept torturing him because he didn’t have an alpha and of course his heat would
regulate itself if he’d just get himself fucked properly. No one missed a
chance to fill him in on any of this or how wonderful it was if he finally
managed to find one.
 
But Stiles didn’t plan his life on getting fucked.
 
Not to cause any misunderstandings, he was a healthy teen and, yes, he wanted
sex. Sex was awesome - or so he assumed - and of course the thoughts of it had
consumed his mind for quite a while.
 
Until it had all gotten too much, too suffocating, too… consuming. And stubborn
relentlessness had grown to outright rejection. He was clever and curious.
Stiles wasn’t a brainless whore and he would never be.
 
He had to get fucking rid of it.
 
Thankfully there were libraries so he could work his way through every
information he needed. It was the key piece to figuring something out since
talking to anyone was completely out of the question. Mating bonds were the
ultimate optimum of life in their society and no one would ever understand how
Stiles could try to cripple his own biology. Let alone believe it would do him
any good. If anyone knew there was no way they’d allow it so Stiles could, by
all means, not expect any help.
 
The bonds were a complex system of regulated biology. A system of needs and
necessity to keep alphas and omegas alike from going feral. Stiles knew very
well how easily an omega could drift into a crisis over a simple rejection. His
own biology was messed up enough to see an alpha worth for bonding everywhere
and feel rejected all the time. The point was, a rejection wasn’t only a
rejection for an omega. It was real, physical pain and a possible shutdown.
Omegas needed an alpha to keep stable, their bodies demanded it. To mess with
the biology could end in the last mournful day of his life.
 
And he knew it was dangerous but he still had to try. He had to get free. Get a
life.
 
When he finally found a way to end his heat cycle in all the standard info he
already knew, the main problem was to find an alpha to participate in the
process. Because of course to get rid of alphas he needed one's powers first.
What else? He really couldn’t wait for the moment when his life would stop to
center itself around the fucking alphas and since he was so closeto freedom he
was brimming with excitement. For now, though, Stiles needed one alpha, a
strong one, to make his dream come true.
 
Before he could finally make his motion, Stiles still had to wait for weeks.
His cycle was right before moon and therefore a heat came in between his plans.
With the messed up biology he had Stiles’ heats weren’t exactly the most normal
ones. Heating without an alpha was a nuisance for every omega but Stiles was
always cycling around the verge of a real bonding crisis. It was the darkest
place to imagine, a time without hope, just desperate desire and excruciating
pain. Whatever it was that was wrong with his body, his heats were pure torture
and usually it took him a while to get back on track afterwards. He was still
recovering from this one’s aftermath when Stiles centered his plans for freedom
around one alpha in particular, filled with hopes he’d never been able to voice
out loud.
 
The chosen alpha was like… the epitome of alphaness. Handsome, strong, broad
shoulders - the kind of guy that always seemed to reek of masculinity and self-
confidence. Also the guy hated Stiles and Stiles hated him so they’d be safe
not to end up in any unwanted encounters no matter how alpharish the guy might
be and he sure was. That was why he was perfect. His blood would certainly be
strong and effective so all Stiles needed was a plan to convince him to do it.
A good one. No sane alpha would ever give Stiles his blood if he knew what he
wanted it for.
                         _____________________________
 
Two weeks later he stood in front of a giant metal door, arms packed with
ingredients for harmless cookies. Christmas was just a few weeks ahead,
although this house didn’t hold any signs of it - or any kind of decoration in
general - and Stiles did his best to ignore the chilly air out in the
staircase.
 
“Hey, Derek!”, the boy chirped in an attempt to sound casual but it kind of
ended up a little bit stressed out and over excited. The alpha in question
grimaced his features into a pained, somewhat vicious grin as soon as his eyes
found Stiles. He didn’t look happy before either, probably did smell Stiles
already before opening up the door. Having no scent protection at his entrance
seemed to be just right for the paranoid bastard Derek Hale was.
 
“Stiles”, the alpha said with an exhausted sigh, although they weren’t even
through the greeting yet. It was the usual thing for them. They’d met several
times when Derek had helped Stiles’ dad out at the station and it never ended
good - what probably made Derek the best alpha for this job. There was no way
they’d accidentally mate in the process because even if his body went crazy
enough over the alpha’s scent Stiles would still choke on the guy’s behaviour.
Derek made no attempt to invite Stiles and stared him down instead. Yep this
was the alpha he’d chosen to save his life. He’d heard irony was a thing for
life saving.
 
“What do you want?”
 
Stiles didn’t even pretend to be polite and shove himself into the loft before
Derek could come to the conclusion closing the door was probably the best. The
mere touch as he shoved the alpha out of his way caused a shudder to crawl up
his spine and Stiles put all his affords into willing it away with every firm
step through the spacious loft. It was an impressive place yet unlively and
empty. Stiles would never understand how someone could let such opportunities
go to waste. It wasn’t like Hale didn’t have the money or something. But then
again it didn’t seem like he did have much more than that either.
 
His steps led him straight towards the big desk in front of a whole wall of
windows, far away from the door - and Derek for that matter. His musky alpha
scent was everywhere and Stiles struggled to ignore it. He had to say
something, give some kind of explanation. Forget the alpha, it’s the ass of all
people, Stiles. So eventually he answered in a cheerful tone a simple: “Help.”
 
Thus being said Stiles put his ingredient bags down onto the table and turned
to see Derek still standing at the opened door. His hand gestured at the
grocery bags on Derek’s table. Aside from Stiles’ bags it was as empty as most
things here.
“That’s… we’re gonna bake cookies”, he explained.
 
Even from the distance the omega could see Derek’s brows shot up as if Stiles
was now officially out of his mind. And probably Derek wasn’t that wrong.
Stiles felt out of his mind whenever he got close to this alpha and his fucking
scent. This loft was full of his fucking scent, it literally was his fucking
scent. Or like he lost his mind half of the time in general due to a lot of
things not as strong as Derek’s alphaness but Derek was a very strong alpha so
given his messy biology that was just what was supposed to happen. It was all
just one more reason to end the whole heat cycle forever. He didn’t need
reproduction. He could adopt. He could go back to school, study even. He could
do a lot of things if Stiles wasn’t bound to fucking alphas anymore.
 
So he added: “What? Is Derek Grumpy Hale too cool to bake cookies? Its special
cookies. Like… super, alpha powerish cookies that keep me safe. Just a short
thing, nothing to stress about.”
 
Derek’s brows fell down immediately and narrowed to an indescribable line of
skepticism and suspicion. Derek was always suspicious with him and meanwhile he
really couldn’t blame the alpha for it, Stiles couldn’t have him understand
what was actually going on. But Derek spoke before Stiles could make anything
up for a distraction.
 
“Why wouldn’t you be safe?”, Derek asked. “Why don’t you talk to your father
about it?”
 
Yeah. Uh…. Stiles turned and pretended to be busy unpacking his bags while he
was thinking. He hadn’t exactly an explanation for this with his father being
both, an alpha and the Sheriff. Basically he’d hoped Derek wouldn’t ask this
question but of course he did.
 
“Because my dad is my dad. And while family bonds can give the right powers
sometimes they are the wrong ones in other cases”, Stiles explained and was
literally proud of how confident he sounded. Really, if he didn’t know this was
kind of the wrong picture he’d believe it himself.
 
“And not everything can be solved by the Sheriff”, he added quickly. He’d seen
this glint in Derek’s eyes, a very dangerous glint of ‘what about’ that he had
to stop before it spread. “I mean… he cannot possibly arrest every alpha,
right? See? Just what I said. But I am not keen on getting raped because he has
to wait until it already happened and things are starting to get out of hand
lately.”
 
Derek’s brows narrowed further and further to an increasingly intimidating
extent. Stiles tried to ignore it. That only meant that his alpha reacted to
the threat. He was being protective in the light of a threatened omega, just
the usual. This was how Derek was supposed to react as the alpha epitome he
was. Nothing to do with lies and discovery, not at all.
 
“Uh… look. Stop scowling. I am just asking for a little blood and cookies,
nothing else. I even paid for them myself so you can hardly say no.”
 
Derek’s brows raised again at his words - did he talk to the man or his brows?!
- and to his credit Stiles might have not made the best choice of words here.
Internally cursing he started again: “See, you could-”
 
“I am not giving you my blood.”
 
Stiles opened his mouth in protest and shut it without saying anything. He
opened it again and closed it for another time. Fuck, he’d ruined it. He’d
completely ruined it and given the look on Derek’s face when he finally moved
over to him he was pretty much done with the conversation. Stiles hurried to
get the table in between them. There was no touching planned here and he surely
wasn’t giving up so easily.
 
“Look there’s something that can keep me safe, it’s not about much blood. It’s
like, uh, warding alphas off or something. Like…. Not every alpha will be
capable of getting too close, you know? And since you’re never around that
wouldn’t be a problem either. I can still find an alpha, it’s not a real bond
or something, just a mentoring thing.”
 
“No.” That sounded awfully definite. “No? Why no? You don’t even know what I am
talking about.”
 
“I do”, Derek said, gripping Stiles’ arm with one of his giant hands as soon as
he reached him and faster than the boy could have made an escape. Stiles gasped
for air at the touch and a pair of suddenly red flashing eyes. His heart
stumbled as the omega swallowed heavily on the sight. Fuck. He didn’t mean to
get him that mad. He didn’t intend to get the alpha mad at all but Derek seemed
furious now. Without any hesitation he dragged Stiles back to the still open
door.
 
“Bloodlines are dangerous. If something goes wrong you block your entire
system. Whatever you’re dealing with - go talk to your father and don't come
here again.”
 
Well that is exactly the point , Stiles thought but before he could try again
there was a rough push and Stiles struggled to stay on his feet, while the door
slammed shut behind him. At the same time something extremely bitter cramped in
his belly. He could hear his heartbeat speed up, the blood in his veins rushing
loudly through his system. Stiles felt dizzy, frustrated, lost for a second.
The memory of Derek’s touch burned underneath his sweater and over that the
bitter, choking sensation of rejection.
 
What the hell was wrong with the guy? He didn’t want to help, Stiles got it,
but there was no need for the bastard to outright reject him like that. His
body was choking on the combination of alphaness and rejection enough to weaken
his abilities and Stiles struggled to breath for a while. Touching had not been
planned. This reactionhad not been planned. His whole world seemed to spin
until he had no choice than to sit down right here in front of Derek’s door,
like a stray cat, to lead his body away from the emergency shutdown it was
pummeling towards.

Stiles hated how fucking close he always was to get there, how easily alphas
could play with him and his messed up biology. You didn’t do that to an omega,
Derek had to know, everyone knew the danger in kicking them into a bonding
crisis. You don’t reject an omega!But as an alpha he could do whatever he
wanted, this damn bastard and apparently Derek couldn’t care less. Stiles hated
him. Stiles hated alphas. He hated all of them!
Chapter End Notes
     Dear weatherbittensapphire,
     I know that's unfortunately not the most christmassy ending you've
     got here, since this is just the beginning of the story. I hope you
     still like it though and there's more to come next week. :O I'd
     really love to hear from you on my tumblr if you like! But it's
     totally okay if you don't. ;) Once again a wonderful Christmas to
     you, honey!
     And of course a big Merry Christmas to everyone else as well! :D
     Yours sencerely,
     Secret Santa #?????
***** Chapter 2 *****
Chapter Summary
     After Derek's rejection Stiles struggles to bear the consequences and
     find another solution to his problem.
Chapter Notes
     There it finally is, the long announced second chapter! :D
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See the end of the chapter for more notes
                                   Chapter_2
                                        
Stiles didn’t know how he managed to keep conscious but somehow he did,
although he barely remembered anything from the time he was sitting in front of
Derek’s doorstep. Or lying for that matter - because apparently that was what
he did when his mind slowly crawled back to him.
 
The first thing he saw after his body had started to collapse and he could see
again, was old and uninviting metal in front of his face. Dizzily he raised his
gaze, before his mind could catch up and followed claw traces, just within
reach, to some kind of a door handle. So it was a door, a metal door. Derek’s
metal door. And just like that Stiles remembered, knowing in an instant why he
was laying miserable on the floor.
 
His body reacted immediately and send a bitter feeling, rising from his belly,
up to his throat. It urged the pain on that was already raging inside of him,
thickened the dizziness that clouded Stiles’ mind and he quickly tried to shove
it away but it was too late. He knew . Derek had rejected him. He had thrown
him in front of his door like some kind of dirt and the memory alone dragged a
very low whimper from Stiles’ throat. He needed to get away from here. He
needed to. Stiles knew it deep to the bone of his rejection choking body and
his hurt pride alike. He needed to get away from this place.
 
The knowledge got him moving. Although Stiles was shaking, arms and legs wobbly
enough to make him stumble and stagger as he tried to steady himself on his
own, useless limbs. His whole world was spinning, body cramping on the
rejection in painful intervals still but that was nothing new to him anymore.
 
Derek’s damn scent was everywhere, the ultimate reminder of the fact he was
right here and had thrown him out . This time it was a small groan that escaped
Stiles’ lips at the thought. The bastard didn’t even come out to check on him.
Not even that. And there was no way Derek, mistrusting psycho without scent
protection at his door, wouldn’t notice what was going on. No, there was only
one possible reason: Derek didn’t care. He’d thrown him into a bonding crisis
and left him to rot and suffer because he didn’t give a damn and Stiles hated
himself for the fact that he cared. How could Stiles ever think this monster of
a man would help him?
 
Swallowing bitterly the omega’s trembling fingers moved onto the metal door to
steady himself. He could feel the marks of his own scratches in it as he tried
to stay on his feet. For a moment he thought he might fall but then his mind
zoomed in on the furrowing evidence of his desperation and somehow it got
easier. It shouldn’t, it didn’t make sense but it did anyways and Stiles
focused on it like a lifeline, lips opened for every breath to keep Derek’s
scent out as much as possible. Of course he couldn’t lock him out completely,
it was impossible but eventually Stiles made a step away from the door because
he had to.
 
The second he did the boy felt himself fall. Air brushed past his skin, while
the realization hit him, and the next moment there was already pain exploding
in his shoulder, as he crashed into the railing. It shouldn’t have come as a
surprize because he knew the pain would come the moment he fell but the force
of it still hit him unprepared and Stiles pressed his eyes shut with a muffled
groan. Wave after painful wave rushed over him while Stiles lost his
orientation once more. At the end he found himself still halfway on his feet,
though and before Stiles could even think about it he forced another step out
of himself. The need to get away got stronger the further his suffering went
on.
 
Somehow, with the railing’s help, he managed to reach the staircase, slowly
placing a foot onto the first step. Stiles was trembling, the stairs seemed to
move in front of his eyes and the pain made him want to puke. With all those
steps in front of him, the way down suddenly seemed to be endless. Feeling his
overwhelming weakness, in the light of that long staircase, Stiles asked
himself how he was supposed to make it down. He couldn’t do that. He was too
weak and part of him wanted to give up. Lay down right here and press his eyes
shut whatever was coming for him. He couldn’t. It was too much.
 
Keep going, Stiles , he told himself again. You need to get outta here. It was
true but he didn’t feel it, not knowing where that even came from because he
really didn’t have it in him now. Maybe pure stubbornness.
 
Whatever it was it got him moving again. So he did another step and another
one. He was leaning heavily onto the railing, both hands clinging onto it with
as much of a grip he could still come up with. Everything was shaking,
spinning, hurting, cramping. And the whole time Stiles clung to that one
thought:
 
He had to get out of here.
 
Apparently there was a faster way down.
 
Somewhere in between all the painful steps he took, Stiles’ foot eventually hit
one of the stairs just a bit too much at the edge and slipped. He gripped the
railing tighter as he felt himself drift away from it but his hand didn’t have
enough strength anymore. Stiles followed the weak fingers slide over the metal,
off into the air, and for a strange moment he could proces exactly what
disaster was about to come, unable to do anything against it. There was another
stroke of air brushing past his skin when something inside of him tried to
brace himself and Stiles fell. He fell and fell, pain exploding at so many
places he couldn’t count until his vision went black and his mind blank with a
wild roar in his ears.
 
As it stopped the pain stayed. Everything was pure excruciating pain and Stiles
didn’t even think, oblivious to the time passing. He just endured it, while his
body healed slowly, that alone already more than he could handle. At some point
he realized there were noises in the distance but he couldn’t wrap his mind
around what they meant. The only thing that really got through to him was the
terrible pain. It was still terrible when Stiles was actually able to think
again. The noises were gone, he didn’t care. He didn’t know how long he was
lying here and he didn’t care either. He was just in pain, his body healing
ever so slowly. Pain, pain, pain.
 
He wanted it to stop.
 
Maybe it would be better if I don’t, he thought, laying there with nothing else
than pain and his thoughts. It would be so easy to just let go, die and get
away from all the pain, all the loneliness, all the shame. It would be so easy.
 
That’s the Crisis speaking. The rejection, a voice in the back of his head told
him but Stiles wasn’t so sure of it. There wasn’t much left to live for. He
didn’t talk to a friend in months, barely ever left the house. He was the only
teen that was prohibited from school and banned from any possible future there
was. What would he become? How would he live? He did nothing else anymore than
struggle from one Bonding Crisis to another and the only way out seemed to be
something that made Stiles’ wish to vanish only stronger. He could never bind
himself to a stranger. He could never give himself away with spread legs and no
rights for the rest of his being. That wasn’t a being.
 
But his dad would be all alone then. And despite all the things Stiles had lost
and all the arguments about mating they had he still loved his dad. In fact,
his dad was the only person who loved him back. Maybe the only person who ever
would. He couldn’t leave him. Not his dad. Not after his mom already left both
of them.
 
So somehow Stiles started to move again, clinging to the knowledge that he had
to get out of here, that he’d never, ever cry, never let Derek hear that. And
he didn’t.
 
He had no idea how much time passed or how exactly he made it down the stairs,
since he couldn’t even get onto his feet, but eventually Stiles ended on the
street, cold air blowing into his face, making him choke on the dirt he
accidentally inhaled. It was still better than inside where Derek’s scent had
been stronger.
 
Stiles literally crawled across the street, oblivious to the fact that any time
a car could drive over. Part of him still thought: Never mind, it wouldn’t be
too bad. The other crawled on with his dad in mind until Stiles reached the
Jeep and somehow ended up inside.
 
It was easier here. Derek’s scent wasn’t the most dominant one but Stiles’ own,
wrecked mix of pain and desperation and lust and frustration. It was at least
familiar. Carefully he curled up to a ball and closed his eyes, trying to
ignore the pain and focus on his own scent. It was good. It was only Stiles and
nothing else. Nothing else… nothing to hurt him any further. No more.
 
                                ______________
                                        
                                        
It took him days to recover from Derek Hale.
 
His dad didn’t ask questions. It wasn’t an unusual thing to see his son
struggling through a Bonding Crisis. When he came home late, the house filled
with scents of pain and fear and hopelessness, the Sheriff’s first way had been
up to his son’s room as usual. He’d silently made sure Stiles ate and drank,
leaving his scent purposefully in Stiles’ room for the slightest hint of a
relief. His dad was not an available alpha. But he was family, pack and, as
long as Stiles was unmated, his alpha after all.
 
It stayed like that all days long. His dad brought food and water, left his
scent and made sure to be there when he woke up screaming and tearing at sheds
or his own skin likewise. Stiles remembered sad, brown eyes, knowing that it
was his fault alone. He remembered to hear the door in the mornings, knowing
his dad had been sleeping in his room again.
 
They didn’t have much time to talk so they didn’t, but Stiles knew there would
be a conversation once he was steady enough. He knew it would never end. He
knew there was no way out of this shitty life he and his dad lived if he
couldn’t stop his heats.
 
So he was back at his computer as soon as he could somehow manage to move the
mouse, with pain still cramping in his body. There had to be a way, any way. If
not this ritual than another one, he didn’t care. But Stiles wouldn’t find
anything. Nothing. He managed to not puke onto his keyboard, collapsed three
times to wake up on the floor beside his desk, but he never found any hint to
another possibility than have an alpha cast his power.
 
And that only made it worse. The Crisis, the fear, everything. Because talking
to Derek had already been a great risk and if he wouldn’t be such a fucking ass
he would long have told Stiles’ dad. Every other alpha surely would.
 
He’d thought about taking the blood by force but that only got him  back to
puking, so Stiles ended up on his bed, lungs cramping in his hectic breathings,
trying to give more and more oxygen to his system. He’d have to do it, he’d
have to find an alpha. And if that alpha handed him to his dad he’d get force
bounded. It was a hit or miss chance and Stiles’ panic attack wouldn’t stop
this time. Not before his dad arrived and teared him out of it.
 
                                 ____________
                                        
                                        
It was also the moment when they finally talked. Stiles could see it coming
when the Sheriff, still sitting behind him and holding him tight, went silent.
Stiles couldn’t help but tense up, knowing what was about to come.
 
“You can’t drag this out forever” he said. Stiles narrowed his brows, pressing
his teeth together. “This is going to get worse. It has to stop, Stiles.”
 
“Well then why don’t you finally give me suppressants?” he snapped.
 
“You know that’s not possible.”
 
“Yeah, because for some reason it’s more healthy to skip school and claw at
your skin and lose your mind than get good education, a future and a fucking
life!”
 
He could feel his father sigh behind his back as the sound left the man’s lips.
“You can have a life. You will find a mate and everything will get back to
normal. If you wouldn’t be so stubborn you could already be okay.”
 
He didn’t hold Stiles when the boy withdrew but when Stiles turned to look at
him he could see the same look in his father’s eyes he always wore when they
talked about this. It only urged him on more, anger and frustration rising in
his tired body.
 
“What’s okay about this, dad? What’s so wrong about being independent that you
keep pushing me to some stranger?”
 
His father’s brows rose skeptically. “We’ve talked about this often enough,
son. You know it doesn’t have to be a stranger. You could find someone you
actually like, Stiles. The only thing you can’t keep doing is this. You’re
never gonna make it until eighteen to set your life on suppressants.”
 
Stiles’ mouth fell open. “I wasn’t-” he started but his dad raised his eyebrows
and made him stop. “I know what you are doing, Stiles. You can’t. If you don’t
pay attention you will get feral long before eighteen and a forced bonding is
the best thing you can get then. It wouldn’t even make you happy if you could
do it.”
 
Stiles didn’t answer. There wasn’t much he could say since both of them knew
his dad was right. He wouldn’t only suffer more, he would also lose the last
bits of his senses, sooner or later. Losing it wasn’t just a feeling when the
Crisis hit. He actually was, each time a little bit more. But he couldn’t just
mate. He couldn’t just give himself up.
 
“Go out, Stiles, find a mate. Do what other teens do. I never told you much
what to do but this time I’d really appreciate it if you do this the normal
way.”
 
But he couldn’t. He couldn’t do it any way.
 
There was a heavy hand on his shoulder, squeezing it gently before his dad got
up and left the room. He wouldn’t understand, not ever. No one would.

The only way Stiles had, more than ever, was that ritual. Because his dad might
be wrong about losing his biology being a loss but he was right with one thing:
Stiles was never gonna make it until eighteen without turning feral. He had to
do the ritual.
Chapter End Notes
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***** Chapter 3 *****
Chapter Summary
     Stiles never wanted to see Derek again. Never. But his need for a
     solution drives him back to the alpha.
Chapter Notes
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                                 Chapter Three
                                        
“I am not gonna help you with this”, Derek said angrily when he laid in wait at
the alpha’s Camaro, about a month after their last meeting. It was Christmas
Eve, the town glowed in colorful lights and hopeful eyes except for theirs.
 
Stiles had tried to find another alpha. After Derek had left him choking on his
doorstep for hours before Stiles could get up again, without coming back to
check on him once, there was no way he’d ever want to see him again. So he’d
tried, desperately. He’d even carefully talked to Deputy Parrish about it but
it had only lead to another speech on how there are programs for this if he
needed help and if he didn’t like strangers involved even Parrish would be
willing to help out. “There are solutions for this, Stiles. We can help you.
Don’t worry about it and don’t do anything stupid. I know it’s been rough on
you lately but you don’t have to deal with it alone”, he’d said.
 
But he knew nothing. He was an alpha and he had no idea how chainsaws ripping
your flesh apart felt like, or how dark the world looked like from the middle
of a lone heat. Fuck, he didn’t even know how it felt to wither in the need for
someone without it even being sexual as long as there was fucking something in
this whole damn world. He knew nothing, no one did. Not even the other omegas
since no one had to face this, let alone a fucking, damn alpha.
 
And really? Parrish was nice. Having someone seemingly care and actually
offering some help was tearing at him so much that Stiles locked himself up in
his bedroom as much as he could for two days, trying to get his body back to
senses, because especially after what happened with Derek he lost it once
again.
 
It was almost unbearable but he’d long stopped calling the docs when his
bonding crisis took over. They didn’t do much, not even ease his pain by
suppressants. All they did was taking him in under watch to make sure his
vitals were alright, telling him how much he needed to give in to his biology
and get himself fucked by an alpha. It was the most humiliating thing Stiles
had ever experienced to be watched stuffing himself up with whatever he could
find, crying, screaming while he was obviously losing his mind. He couldn’t
take it anymore.
 
So instead Stiles had isolated himself more and more with his system coming
closer and closer to a final collapse the longer he stayed alone. The
encounters with Derek and Parrish had been crucial hits to his hardly balanced
biology. He felt more urgent than ever before.
 
So Stiles had found himself kind of desperately back at Derek’s door as soon as
he could handle to get out of the house but no one had opened. Weeks had passed
and the more Derek ditched him the more Stiles could feel an edge under his
needs and frustration over the rejection. An unfamiliar strong anger that he
knew was getting closer to a feral omega than it should.
 
Standing in front of him now, looking right at the rejection in the alpha’s
angry face in all its intensity, Stiles could feel the need to tear apart and
roar dangerously close to the surface. He was falling with each second and he
was soclose to snap over the edge.
 
“Don’t you dare leaving me behind!” he hissed almost growling and Derek stopped
mid track where he was about to enter the car. Whatever he’d caught, he seemed
to have caught something because the look on his eyes as Derek turned to look
at Stiles was cautious.
 
Christmas music erupted from the nearby shopping center, filling the short
moment of silence between them. It made Stiles feel all the more feral, feeling
the thirst to spill blood while all he should feel these days should be
something that was peaceful and happy. But it was Christmas and it was the
worst time of the year ever since his mom died and there was no time he’d feel
more lost and lonely and desperate than now. He’d not let this bastard get
away. He couldn’t.
 
“You cannot just ditch me, Derek! You are an alpha. You are bound by law to
help an omega in need!” Stiles spit the words out like the poison that was
running through his veins and yet he couldn’t hold back how hurt he was by it.
He was brimming with hurt, brimming with anger.
 
Derek’s eyes scanned Stiles’ face carefully and the omega’s heart sank. It was
obvious how unsettled he was currently, Derek had to know, had to see and smell
it all around him. He’d call the cops. They’d lock him up, put him into forced
bonding with some fitting stranger and Stiles’ freedom would be lost forever.
He had to behave, had to keep control but his breath wouldn’t stop to tremble
anymore. Stiles looked around, almost expecting everyone to look at him in
shock but no one seemed to be close enough. No one except Derek and Stiles
already knew he couldn’t trust this man.
 
When Stiles looked back, Derek was turning more towards him in a slow,
calculated movement. It was so stupid how the burning anger inside Stiles eased
just a tiny little bit finding himself finally under attention - even if he
didn’t know yet what Derek was about to do. He might as well tackle him down to
hand him over to the cops.
 
“It’s too dangerous, Stiles” he said with a surprisingly gentle voice. It was
still matter of factly but all Stiles had ever known from this man was rough
rejection, mockery and anger. This was startling. But despite their tone the
words send something sharp and absolute through his insides as fierce as
lightning. Stiles didn’t need to see Derek’s eyes switch into alarm to know
something just flashed through his own eyes.
 
Reflexively he looked away, claws pressing against his palms to keep control.
The music changed and roared over the parking lot with a cheerful Jingle bells
interpretation, while Stiles’ mind raced through all the options what they’d do
to him as a feral omega. How they’d hold his naked body down for the alpha
until he snapped back out of feral and was left alone with this stranger as his
life mate. Or possibly things going down bad enough to get shot instead. Maybe
even rip out Parrish’s throat and get shot by his own dad who’d be left alone
with no family after he lost his son, too. Fear washed over him, flooded him
and he heard how his breath speed up a bit. He felt so lonely. He felt so
angry. He wanted to cry and scream and bolt and tear something apart all at
once.
 
“You’re not gonna get into the car with me”, Derek said again and Stiles’ eyes
shot back up to him. But the look on Derek’s face wasn’t as closed up anymore.
It wasn’t rejection. Shortly Stiles shook his head, knowing too well that it
was out of the question. It meant too much closeness, too much closed room. It
would only end in heavy sex or, regarding his state, tearing body parts into
shreds - maybe both.
 
“I will meet you at the loft”, Derek said again slowly. He sounded like he was
talking to a panicking animal which was probably exactly what Stiles was right
now. “We’ll talk there.”
 
It could be a solution. It could finally be what he’d wanted all the time. Or a
trap to have him secured without getting too close. Derek was an ass, not
inexperienced. He probably knew exactly the amount of danger that currently
brimmed within him. But Stiles didn’t have an alternative. If he bolted every
Deputy in the country would be looking for him, every civilian would run from
him. No one would help him and he’d end up going feral for real.
 
Stiles swallowed heavily, bringing his hand up to wander over his face when he
nodded. By now the trembling had taken over his whole body and he only managed
to swipe down his face half of the time, fingers bouncing off in heavy spasms
that he tried to hold under control.
 
“Get into the car”, Derek said again slowly. “Drive to the loft.” Stiles
struggled with the relief flooding his veins. It would probably be over soon.
He just had to get into the car, he told himself, unconsciously letting himself
be guided by Derek’s deep voice.
 
“I’ll meet you there.”
 
There it was again. He swallowed, finally able to will his body into motion.
 
 
                 _____________________________________________
 
 
When Stiles eventually walked up to the loft he noticed the acrid smell of
scent suppressants lingering everywhere. It was a great relief for his senses
to not get drowned in the heavy alpha scents again and he was actually kinda
thankful.
 
It also meant Derek’s own instincts would stirr at the loss of his territorial
surroundings. It was nothing an alpha did if he didn’t believe it was really
necessary, because it went straight against all their instincts and Stiles
asked himself for the hundredth time if this was a good idea. As relieving as
it was, Derek’s action only showed how obvious Stiles’ current state was to
him. Maybe he should bolt. He could. Nothing was faster than an omega, so he
could if he wanted to.
 
He’d spent half an hour down in the driver’s seat of his Jeep trying to make a
decision on this matter and to somehow get back into control of his own body.
Of course the Camaro had already been there, when Stiles arrived and it was
kind of relieving to see a sign that Derek was going to keep his promise but
the alpha also had more than enough time to call the cops. Given the law and
Derek’s earlier rejections there was no reason for the older wolf to hesitate.
 
The law was pitch clear: Get the omega under control, call the cops and wait
for them to arrive. Stiles had no idea how often those words had been forged
into his mind in case an omega might even be close to going feral.
 
But no sirens had suddenly erupted, no scent of wolfsbane had made it into his
Jeep. In fact nothing happened. Nothing at all, except for Derek watching him
from the broad window of his loft. And with time and threats passing the uproar
that held Stiles had eased down a bit. He was still shaky, tense like he’d
never been before but he clung to the thought that Derek said they’d talk.
Someone was going to help him and soon everything could be over. There were no
alpha scents around to irritate him and why ever he didn’t Derek didn’t call
the cops. At least he hoped it. So Stiles tried to shove his doubts away as he
reached the giant metal door.
 
Stiles could smell himself by now. A heavy mixture of whatever scents an omega
could produce. Fear and lust and anger and hope and the bitter edge of feral
wrath. He felt like a child peeing into his pants and when the door opened
before Stiles could do so much as knock he dropped his gaze immediately. Derek
seemed to just look at him for a while until Stiles couldn’t help it and peered
up. His expression was unreadable.
 
He didn’t call the cops , Stiles reminded himself.  He might actually help you
this time .
 
Derek went back in, the door still open, without a word. Stiles only hesitated
for a second. There was no sign of anyone other than them in here. He still
stayed where he was, right at the door and ready to bolt. Funny how this time
it was Stiles safely at the door and Derek keeping his distance at the huge
table like Stiles did the last time.
 
The alpha watched him for another moment before he broke the silence where
Stiles was still struggling with himself: “Why do you need this blood so
badly?”
 
It was a simple and fair question but Stiles found it difficult to concentrate.
He’d reached a point when he didn’t know what he felt anymore, only that it was
too much. He felt so exhausted and worn, still shaky and tense. Trying to
remember his plan he swallowed slightly.
 
“My heats”, he finally said and took a breath. “They’re getting… they’re
affecting people. I can’t….” He swallowed again and licked over his dry lips.
“They’re gonna force-claim me,  someone ’s gonna force-claim me. A doctor, a
neighbour, I-”
 
His voice broke and Stiles swallowed again for the third time. But the pressure
didn’t leave and he didn’t find more words.
 
“What about suppressants? I thought-”
 
“I don’t get suppressants! I am underage. They want me to live my biology but
my biology screams  rape !”
 
Derek shifted where he was leaning against the table. For a moment there was
silence and Stiles almost expected him to ask why he’s not going to a facility
to find a fucking mate at last. Instead he asked: “Why not your dad?”
 
Stiles felt the tension in himself ease a little bit although he could tell
Derek wasn’t done testing him. He tried to breath, his chest still tense. So
much was still roaring inside him.
 
“I told you: It doesn’t work for dad’s. It’s… It wards them off, kind of, the
alphas. Dad’s aren’t sexual content for god’s sake. With another alpha that’s
different. Your power will shield me.”
 
And it wasn’t even a lie. Stiles had worked long on how he’d explain this to
make sure there wouldn’t be a lie audible anywhere. The room was silent for a
long while now and Stiles started to get nervous again. More nervous than he
already was.
 
It was now or never, he could feel it. Stiles felt so close to the edge he knew
he couldn’t take it any longer. He’d lose it. Sooner or later he’d lose it,
maybe right after the wrong answer. And if not Derek would deliver him to his
dad. His dad would find out. Stiles would get into forced bonding. And there
they were again, all those fears he’d been trying to ward off for all this
time. There was no good end to this. Not if Derek didn’t help him. He needed
him now more than Stiles had ever needed anything in his life, no matter how
much he hated it. Derek held his whole life in his hands.
 
What if he wouldn’t help? What then? Stiles’ thoughts kept circling around
every inch of his end, heart speeding up, hands sweating. His mind was racing,
searching for a solution and he was already on the verge to blindly run.
 
“Okay.”
 
Stiles’ eyes widened and the same moment his heart speed up to another race. “
What ?”
 
“I’ll give you my blood. But I will personally mix the ingredients.”
Chapter End Notes
     Yes, another cliffhanger and, no, it wasn't the last one! xD I really
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     life is too unstable currently to make any promises but I know that
     it is already finished and so far I should have a bit spare time next
     week again. I cannot promise anything though. Even if it takes
     longer, it will definitely come. No matter how long it takes, I won't
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***** Chapter 4 *****
Chapter Summary
     At the verge of turning to a feral omega Stiles finally gets to
     fulfill his dream and perform the ritual. But it is a wicked beast of
     an unknown power and the outcome might be even more dangerous.
     Will he survive?
Chapter Notes
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Chapter Four
 
It smelled seductively of cinnamon and chocolate under the heavy blanket of
suppressants what made the obviously unused kitchen in Derek’s loft seem
unfamiliar lively. Stiles wondered what the guy ate if he didn’t use his
kitchen but didn’t bother to ask. The smell was reassuring for his nerves. His
nervous omega instincts absorbed any sensation of warmth and home they could
get - even a strange illusion of it.
 
The delicious scents weren’t what he was curiously sniffing after, though.
 
“Stiles.”
 
There was a warning in the alpha’s voice that didn’t slip Stiles’ attention and
he stopped sniffing the test glass to look up at him. “What? I am just
sniffing.”
 
“I see what you’re doing”, Derek said and took the glass out of his hand to put
it back onto its stand.
 
Stiles’ nerves had slightly settled over the last hour. They had made sure the
scent suppressants stayed strong the entire time and the fact that he didn’t
had to fight as much for once had loosened Stiles’ tension. Of course any kind
of body contact was an absolute no go, though, which was why he let the glass
slip out of his hands as soon as he saw Derek reach for it - almost a little
bit too fast.
 
Derek shot him a warning glare, moving the stand out of his reach and Stiles
stepped back with a sigh, wiping his sweaty hands on his jeans.
 
The alpha has been acting that way the entire time by now. The mission was to
bake cookies  together , or so Stiles had stated, but he wasn’t quite sure the
older one had any kind of knowledge about the concept. Whatever Stiles touched,
whenever he got close to a knife or the oven or anything else that might
possibly be a thread, Stiles found himself out of the way more quickly than he
could actually get in touch. He started wondering if it was Derek’s way of
letting him know how stupid he thought Stiles was and bossing him around, or
the older one wasn’t entirely unaffected by the smells Stiles had been sending
out all day.
 
To his surprise Derek knew quite a few things about bloodlines, though, and at
first he’d been worried his plans would be discovered. But with progress
showing Stiles felt relief in seeing the alpha’s hands mix the ingredients up
quite expertly. He couldn’t trust his own ones since they were still
occasionally trembling and his concentration was still a mess.
 
Both things kind of had helped to make him settle down enough to be more like
his usual self. As much as he wanted to stay independent, after all the
pressure it felt good to know things were solved without any need to worry
about them.
 
“I’ll check on the cookies, then”, Stiles said and turned just to realize the
very next moment there was something invading his private space. In a hurry the
boy retreated from the oven and saw Derek fucking Hale check on the cookies
himself. Of course he would. It was attempt number eight of his to do
something  and obviously Derek had other plans.
 
Stiles  rolled his eyes. “Oh yeah. Alright. I am all incapable of checking damn
cookies”, he said. “Has to be the omeganess. Thank you, oh mighty alpha wolf.”
 
Derek shot him another glare but didn’t say anything. Instead he went back to
the table, his hands rolling up one of his sleeves. It was then that Stiles
felt his heartbeat suddenly speed up again, the nervousness creeping back in.
Something in him realized what was about to happen, even before Derek said it.
 
The blood. It was all about the blood now.
 
Stiles swallowed, watching how Derek eventually extended his claws and looked
up at him. The alpha kept his gaze on Stiles with raised brows, for some reason
not going any further, yet. Just one and he’d spill blood, just one small
movement. Something tingled in Stiles’ belly and he felt the heat rising again.
He was dizzy.
 
“The cookies are almost ready for the next step” Derek said eventually. The
gaze of his pale eyes was laying intently on the omega. Something thickened in
the boy’s throat. “Do you want to go out for this?”
 
There was no immediate answer. Stiles was still looking at Derek’s claws and
his bared arm, heat and a strange claustrophobic feeling continuously rising in
his chest, that he couldn’t quite explain. Stiles swallowed again and wiped his
hands on his own jeans for another time. Why was he so nervous?
 
“Does it…. Does it take much? Blood, I mean. ... It’s just a small … scratch or
something, a cut maybe, nothing… crucial. Right?”
 
He could see Derek’s brows raise even further. His nostrils flared slightly and
Stiles really didn’t want to know what kind of scent the alpha had caught just
know. His skin felt so small again, he couldn’t breathe. Why couldn’t he
breathe?
 
“Do you-”, he tried but Derek eventually interrupted his words, voice firm and
patient although there was a trace of annoyance in there.
 
“I am certainly not damaging myself.”
 
Stiles blinked. Yeah. Sure. Why would he do that, right? “I… I wasn’t worried
about that.”
 
But the moment he said the words Stiles heard his own heart skip a beat. Just a
small, short note mocking all the hate he’d been feeling for the last months.
Maybe the suppressants didn’t work as much. Maybe Derek’s scent was getting to
him after all. And maybe, yes, he should definitely leave the room until the
alpha had worked his alpha power.
 
“The scent will be strong. Stronger than anything else you’ve smelled before”,
Derek clarified. Stiles shot him a short glance and fled the scene.
 
             _____________________________________________________
 
Apparently Derek was right. The scent was strong enough to follow him down onto
the street. Never did he expect the impact that the moment Derek spilled his
blood for him would have. Stiles’ entire body suddenly cramped without warning,
pressing every air out of his lungs and sending him straight down onto the
floor.
 
Minutes passed until Stiles could make it back up to the loft, confused over
his reaction and lightheaded, just to find Derek long healed beside a bowl
filled with cookies. It was such a normal and domestic sight Stiles almost let
out a somewhat hysterical laugh.
 
He didn’t laugh, though. His eyes were fixed on the cookies, the scent of fresh
suppressants fighting to overlay the cinnamon and chocolate tingling his nose.
The cookies looked so strangely normal. No signs of alpha blood or secret
powers that would soon block his heats away forever. No powers making him… what
exactly? Half an omega? An altered, better form of himself? Or damaged? But
right now he already was damaged with this crazy cycle.
 
He’d be free. Forever free.
 
Slowly Stiles walked over and settled down on one of the chairs to take one
cookie into his hand. He’d get into trouble as soon as everyone would find out.
It wasn’t before his next heat would stay away. Maybe Stiles would be able to
keep the secret a little bit longer, going through the tests they’d do at the
clinic as if he had no clue what was going on but it would mean to feign
uselessness for more weeks, while he was actually free. He could do whatever he
wanted, chose whoever he wanted...
Stiles stopped there for a moment. He didn’t think about the other alphas
before. What would they say if they found out Stiles would never ever be able
to get children? Would anyone be interested in him? Would he be a suitable mate
for anyone?
 
“You don’t have to do it.”
 
Stiles looked up to find Derek’s steady gaze on him for god knew how long. He’d
obviously been watching him and Stiles tried to look as confident as possible
when one was about to find out how dangerous bloodlines could really get.
Because that was what it was. Dangerous. It could all end up so awful. If there
was some kind of mistake in it Stiles could even die.
 
“Of course I have to”, he said as casual as possible. “It will be fine. I’ll be
good. Don’t look at me like that.”
 
Stiles shove the cookie into his mouth and started chewing, pushing all
thoughts about rejection and death or blood cookies away. There was a strange
note in Derek’s expression that Stiles couldn’t quite name. He took another
cookie, when there was no urge to puke and another one, the silence spreading
between the both of them.  Worry , he thought. As strange as it was Derek
looked worried.
 
“How many cookies do I have to eat? I mean, they taste surprisingly good given
the fact there’s your blood in there but shouldn’t there be some kind of…
change?”
 
Derek’s gaze didn’t falter. He kept looking at Stiles, unmoved by the omega’s
casual voice, with the same worried expression he’s had since he’d seen Stiles
with the cookie in his hand. The omega shifted a little bit on his seat.
 
“It will come.”
 
“Yeah but when?” Stiles took another one. “I feel the same as before. Do I need
to eat all of them? Oh God, stop looking at me, you’re making me nervous.”
 
Derek didn’t stop. His strange gaze stayed glued to him the entire time.
 
“Come on. I am fine, obviously. Relax.”
 
But Stiles didn’t know to whom he was actually talking to. Derek or himself. He
shifted again, cautiously taking another cookie. Derek’s fucking gaze was so
intimidating he felt heat rise into his cheeks. Even Stiles’ skin tingled a
little bit under the attention. What the hell was he up to? He’d never cared
about Stiles before.
 
“Dude! It's not normal to look at someone like that, okay? You don’t do that.
It’s intimidating. It’s fucking rude. Have at least the decency to blink.”
 
Stiles took another cookie, a little bit harsher than necessary and started to
roll up his sleeves. The cold surface of the table felt good. He could feel his
heartbeat stronger in his chest. For god’s sake, why did Derek have to act like
the creeper he was? Stiles had other business to do now. Like figuring out his
new being, enjoying his freedom as soon as he knew he wouldn’t collapse. This
was exactly why he didn’t like alphas. Fucking ignorant bastards, all of them.
When he swallowed the last remains of his latest cookie, Stiles snorted
pointedly. He wouldn’t let himself get mocked by a damn alpha, not anymore. He
was free now. He could withstand anything now.
 
It wasn’t until he saw Derek’s nostrils flare in a tiny little movement, almost
invisible, until Stiles realized what the heat didn’t feel as if by
embarrassment but something familiar that would totally make the alpha’s nose
react - and in an instant his whole expression fell.
 
“What’s going on?”, he asked, the alarm audible in his voice. His gaze fell
onto the cookie in his hand as he felt the lingering, burning heat deep within
him slowly rise and he let it fall onto the table.
 
“Derek?” Stiles could hear the rising fear in his own voice. It was different
than he was used to but tense and lingering so deep within him that Stiles saw
the mere force that was coming at him. Derek didn’t answer. He was still
watching silently until Stiles got up from his chair.
 
“What’s going on Derek?! I… It’s supposed to vanish, isn’t it? Why isn’t the
heat vanishing?!”
 
“Relax, Stiles. Don’t fight it”, Derek finally said and Stiles’ vision began
spinning. He realized that he was leaning on the counter now, a familiar
pressure in his pants that wasn’t supposed to happen. His whole skin had
started burning. Whatever happened, the process quickened.
 
“What does that mean? What-?”
 
He tried to breathe but he couldn’t. Everything was burning. His lungs, his
skin, his insides. Stiles desperately gasped for air.
 
“Don’t fight it, Stiles” Derek’s deep voice said again. “You’ll feel clearer
when it is over. Just dive in. Everything you need is here.”
 
And then it clicked.
 
The shock burst through him like a cold lightning bolt. Anger and even hurt
rose, mixing into the heat simultaneously as he felt the first convulsions tear
at his insides. Stiles swallowed a scream.
 
“You did this!”, he spit out breathlessly. “You changed the ingredients!” He
should have fucking  known  he couldn’t trust him!
 
Stiles felt his claws emerge from the tips of his fingers with the sound of
cracking wood, felt himself cling to the doorknob of a shelf. Everything seemed
cold against his body but nothing eased the heat away. Another convulsion and
Stiles whimpered. He was in heat. He was in fucking heat. It was supposed to be
over!
 
“You lied to me!”
 
There was a snort and Stiles saw vaguely in the corner of his eyes how the
alpha retreated to the door. “You’re one to speak. Do you even know what  The
Last Meal  is?” He was speaking through gritted teeth and Stiles realized the
heavy musky scent lingering in the air that literally  screamed  ‘Alpha!’.
Derek was yearning for him, hungry for a little touch, a lick, a thrust.
Stiles’ scent had to be unbearable for the alpha and Stiles own body was well
aware of this fact. His body wanted him, too. “It was used by Assassins when
they knew they wouldn’t come back”, the older one spat at him.
 
Stiles could barely follow. He still couldn’t breath. Over and over his body
cramped together with a force he didn’t know yet. What kind of damn heat was
this? What the hell did Derek do with the receipt? Everything Derek said didn’t
make any sense and just went under in his pain.
 
“What-? What the hell are you… talking about?!”, Stiles got out and finally let
go of the shelf’s door knob to drop and form a ball on the floor. He didn’t
have the strength anymore. The world was spinning wildly. His entire abdomen
was filled with terrible pain from deep within him that kept getting slowly
stronger.
 
“They offered their cycle for a clear mind because it didn’t matter if they’d
die afterwards since they were on a suicide mission. You were going to kill
yourself, you idiot!”
 
He couldn’t wrap his mind around Derek’s words. The pain got stronger and
stronger. He couldn’t say if it was up front or from within his cheeks. It was
just there, everywhere and Stiles couldn’t take it anymore. He reached down to
try and open his jeans for a relief. His ass was wet, long ready for this and
he  needed  the pain to end. But Stiles never got to finish his motion. With
the next convulsion he lost it.
 
“Aaaaahhhh!”
 
First he didn’t realize the scream was his own until he felt Derek somewhere
beside him. “Stiles?” the alpha’s voice asked. Worried, pale eyes appeared
within his vision as it started to get entirely blurry. Another scream, more
pain. He realized a voice, someone calling his name but he didn’t really get
who anymore. This was worse. This was worse than any heat he’d ever felt. There
was absolutely no pleasure in it, only plain, excruciating, torturing pain.
 
And then his world went black.
Chapter End Notes
     No I won't stop the cliff-hangers. xD
     But I hope you still enjoyed the story so far, especially as some of
     you have waited for so long. I totally love hearing back from you
     guys and if anyone is concerned about Derek's actions please be
     patient for the next chapters. ;D
     Talking about next chapters! :D
     There actually is a freaking plan for finishing this story! Who is
     with me from the beginning or remembers the front note of the first
     chap knows that this story started almost a year ago as a Secret
     Santa gift for weatherbittensapphire. After this one there are only
     two chapters left and comming closer to christmas this story's
     anniversary is also just two months ahead..... :)
     :) ... :) ... :)
     You guessed right! The next chapter will be posted in November (no
     particular date) and the last one - anniversary, anniversary - with
     the Secret Santa gifts on Christmas Eve!
     I am super excited for the upcoming chapters. There's a lot going on,
     a lot of reveals going to be made and I am so.fucking.curious about
     what you will think. :D
     Also if you are interested: I am participating in the Secret Santa
     event again this year. Just something short this year (because time
     issues) but I am in and I have something else in stock already that's
     also going to be posted within christmas time. Check out my tumblr
     gswritings for this one when it is all christmassy outside. ;)
     Thanks again and until next month! :D
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